Some thing I've learned while being and doing social work is that these kiddos have been through hell alread. The kids in foster care need 3 simple things: structure, routine, and love. They need parents that are pesent, reliable, and able to care for them at their best and worst. One step that jeff and I are working on is making our lives structured and simple. For me that meant checking myself and making sure that I can handle my own stuff and handle the kids stuff. One way that I am simplifying and re-structuring myself is by leaving the world of social work for a while. I need some space from my foster parents, my kiddos and my job. I need space for my life and my world to calm down. So I quit. I found a job as a receptionist at an animal clinic in town. This is the first step in pursuing a job that is still satisfying but that leaves emotional and physical room for me to be present in my life at home. Lately my case management job wasn't allowing me to be me at home. I wasn't getting breaks from work and I wasn't feeling rested or at rest at any time. This job happened just like most things do in my life. It happened thru godly timing and connections that can't be explained. I called my good od uncle stan to ask him for some wisdom and his words of advice were to slow down and enjoy life. This job will let me do that. And if I get tired of my clients I can put them in their kennel and walk away : ). Anyways, all of that to say that God remains good and he gives me ways to find peace so I can become the woman of faith I want to be.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Waiting game
I know it's been forever since we have written anything on this blog. There haven't been any updates. We finished the main class and have been waiting for the Spaulding class to open up. Well, one unclear conversation and we are signed up for the class in November.
It is really hard for me to have to wait for anything. Jeff is much more patient than I am. That's why I love netflix, there is no waiting. You want the next episodeand BAM it's on. I love that Jeff is good at waiting and slow to make a decision, I wish I was more comfortable with that.
I want to met our son, start school with him, introduce him to our world, and start sharing this crazy love that I have for my family [Jeff and Abby] with this little guy. But I have to wait and I have to be ok with waiting.
Wish me luck~