Its about 95% official that Jeff will be moving to Texas for work. Its 100% official that I got into to the Vet. Tec. program at Maple Woods so I won't be going with him to Texas. We spent a lot of time talking about our options and for us, right now, we don't want to officially leave Kansas City. We have too many good things here for us like our friends, my job, our home. This is our city. Jeff & I love KC and we believe that this is the time for a little adjustments so we can stay in KC. Some might think that "you 2 are married, you're supposed to go together" but for us, we are both giving up things so we think about ouryfuture. With Jeff's job traveling is part of the deal & we would rather him travel now with no munchkins so that we can stay close to our family & our friends in the future. And then there's me. The tech program only takes 27 out of the 80+ people that apply. Its sort of special that I made the cut. I can't be a receptionist forever. So during this time, I'm going to study & hold down the home fort while Jefferson works his ass off in Texas. We'll talk, skype, text, daily. Me and abbers could make a road trip to Texas. Jeff can fly home. It will be like dating again. We dated 3 years living 3 hours away from each other. I would like to think that after 4 crazy years of marriage we can make it over another hurdle. Marriage is hard & life is always surpising us. Plans we make never turn out like we expected but that's what keeps me trusting in God & Jeff. I know that God is good and I trust that Jeff has me in mind. We'll take what cards we're dealt & make the most of it.
Monday, June 11, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
It's been far too long
Since the last post, I almost thought "to hell with it" and deleted this blog because really an adoption story has some long boring parts. This is one of them.
Right now we are still looking through profiles and case workers are looking at ours. We've requested information on some kids but that doesn't really mean anything.
Life is throwing some curve balls at me and if you know me you know that I am a planner. I have this ever growing time line in my head of when I expect things to be started and accomplished. This time line includes trips, house projects, adventures and many other activities. But right now me and my time line are in limbo.
I applied for tech school and am waiting to hear back from them. We asked for information on kids and we are waiting to hear back from them. Jeff's job might move him out of state for a while and we are waiting to hear about that. All this waiting and I can't make any plans.
I can't plan on knowing that if in 4 months I will start school with Jeff and a possible kid or completely by myself. I can't plan on if I need to look at daycare or early education assistance from Raytown or if I should just focus on my classes now.
I have no idea how this will all work out or what my family will look like in four months and it drives me nuts. This post might seem scattered because that's how my head feels, scrambled, scattered and anxious. I've been trying to focus on others to not get so caught up in this scrambledness but I am like my mother in this way where I tend to let my emotions rule. Pray for me. Pray for Jeff as he figures out how to love me through this.
Right now we are still looking through profiles and case workers are looking at ours. We've requested information on some kids but that doesn't really mean anything.
Life is throwing some curve balls at me and if you know me you know that I am a planner. I have this ever growing time line in my head of when I expect things to be started and accomplished. This time line includes trips, house projects, adventures and many other activities. But right now me and my time line are in limbo.
I applied for tech school and am waiting to hear back from them. We asked for information on kids and we are waiting to hear back from them. Jeff's job might move him out of state for a while and we are waiting to hear about that. All this waiting and I can't make any plans.
I can't plan on knowing that if in 4 months I will start school with Jeff and a possible kid or completely by myself. I can't plan on if I need to look at daycare or early education assistance from Raytown or if I should just focus on my classes now.
I have no idea how this will all work out or what my family will look like in four months and it drives me nuts. This post might seem scattered because that's how my head feels, scrambled, scattered and anxious. I've been trying to focus on others to not get so caught up in this scrambledness but I am like my mother in this way where I tend to let my emotions rule. Pray for me. Pray for Jeff as he figures out how to love me through this.
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